Around 6:00 am this morning, I decided to go for a walk slash jog…well because I had not slept through out the night. I’m not sure if it was the coffee I drank at 7:00pm the previous night, greys anatomy or just thoughts of my future.
As I walking back from mini-exercise, I was thinking about my journey through out the years and how I was looking forward to writing about it on this blog, BUT not until what I’ve been praying for was answered. The title for the post I was going to write once my prayers had been answered was going to be “Walk by faith.” This title came to me because I was listening to Jeremy Camp’s song “walk by faith.”
** this could be a throw back Thursday song because “walk by faith” was my anthem when I was in highschool**(irrelevant comment concludes)
A part in the song says ” I will walk by faith, even when I cannot see,” which got me saying to myself, “babe, the post you are planning to write when what you are praying for is answered DOES NOT MAKE SENSE!” I had to shake my head at myself because, who talks about walking by faith when they have seen?!
One thing I’ve been struggling with for some years now is faith and just letting go, and letting God. This struggle or the hardening of my heart goes against everything I say I believe in because, a fundamental part of being a Christian is faith. Faith in God. The omnipresent one that we haven’t seen with our eyes but yet feel His presence in our hearts and our lives.
Listening to this song encouraged me to write this post now, because NOW is when I need to have faith not when my prayers have been answered.
The bible teaches us that
faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see- Hebrews 11:1
This means that, when we have faith we are relying on God to fulfill His promises to us. Thinking about it, how freeing is that? that our only job is to just believe and not carry all of our burdens by ourselves. Obviously we are humans and some of us, quite frankly enjoy worrying and carrying all of our burdens, but God is telling us to have faith and believe, that He got us.
I’m sure I’m not going to conquer this struggle of sometimes being faithless, but here is a toast to at least knowing that God doesn’t require much of me than to have a little faith.