I can’t believe I get to write this post. To be alive, well, and have the resources to share with you is a grace from God I am so thankful for.
The beginning of the year started of with so many uncertainties. Towards the end of 2017 I made a decision to make this big move to a different state where I essentially was going to be alone. I moved by myself with nothing. I didn’t come with a family or a job, just my suitcases and thankfully a car and a little bit of cash. Around that time, my only choice was to trust God to provide.
The beginning of the year was so tough for me, especially when I was low in cash, but God really provided for me. I received money in ways I would have never guessed, and I was so thankful. Around the same time, my friend Fancy really poured into my spiritual life and it really was all that sustained me. God sustained me. So much was revealed to me about myself and it was hard to deal with…
along those lines, let me take a little diversion. Pastor John Gray has a clip circulating the internet where he monitions that 2018 was a year that God revealed the true character of people to us. I couldn’t disagree more. I think that sermon (I haven’t watched it in its entirety) does a disservice to people and our current society. These days, everyone is so focused on getting rid of toxic people, bad energy, energy vampires, fakes, haters, etc… and I don’t doubt that these people exist, but sometime WE ARE those people. I wish that we would all look within and change things about ourselves instead of always pointing fingers at others. The truth is that, it can’t always be other people, sometimes, it is us.
2018 was about dealing with myself and just changing and being better and doing better. I have long ways to go and things to work on still but I am proud of the work I am doing on myself.
This year, I tried new things, made new friends, tried new foods and did uncomfortable things. I just want to keep doing that moving forward.
I also face quite a bit of disappointment and a lot tears were shed but I genuinely think that it build my character and I have grown a sort of friendship with pain and suffering. Because if treated as companions and used wisely, I think a lot of good can come from our pain and suffering. I think that was one of my biggest lessons of 2018.
Something that really shook and made me uncomfortable is how everything was changing. I’ve always said and thought to be true of me, that I like change. But the changes I’ve been around this year are so grand and I can’t do anything about them. These changes I speak are good in themselves, but the feeling they brings me, not too much. But I am thankful to be here to witness it
2018 was a deeper relationship with my Lord and Savior. I think this year played out in a way where I had no choice but to depend on God. God was literally my oxygen and I can’t even tell you how fortunate I am to get to know God even more and the avenues that He used to deepened faith, even situations that I wouldn’t have chosen.
This year I got my own place. I have never lived on my own. Its always been with family or roommates and for the first time in my life I am living on my own. This was something that I wanted to do before I got married and praise be to God, I now have the opportunity.
Overall, this year was better than the last three years. Praise be to God. This year to me looked like seeds planted. The toil of digging and watering and planting, but eventually good. I feel like a seed panted. I was planted this year and I can’t wait to see the fruit I bear in the years to come.
One of the new year messages I received on January 1, 2018 was from friend Amber and it was Isaiah 43:18-19
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland.
I can’t say I completely lived this scripture but I still believing tht a day will come where this promise will be fulfilled in my life.
Tell me, how was your 2018?